This Lili bouquet.. is for her. 

1st Treat...

On Saturday, I had decided to meet her after her performance at Kallang Theatre. At about 7.30pm I leave home to Somerset.. to take bus16 to Kallang Road. And her performance ended at about 9.45pm. As I mention b4, I had bought a pink bouquet for her concert on friday.

Flash back, that friday nite she told me she likes Lili flower..well honesty my mind was thinking to buy her a Lili flower after her sat performance.. I tried my luck to go back to that previous florist shop that I purchased the pink bouquet to search whether there is still Lili flower. However, The shop didn't sell. Oh Man! I quickly asked te shop owner "Where is the nearest florist beside here?!" She said behind OG shop[ing centre.

Without any hesitation, I rushed to search for it. I think I reached that "florist" building and I asked the security guard where is the location of the shop. And you know WHAT! All shops had closed.. too late! 8.45pm ..so early shop closed?! I hope I have a bit of luck so that I can buy it. Where can i get the Lili bouquet?! I asked myself.. I didn't give up and time is running up. I have to reach the theatre at 9.45pm but at 9pm, I was still at Somerset..

I ran down to the those small stalls.. I found blue rose BUT it is not real flower..haha! I was thinking to buy blue or Lili bouquest because Sandra like it. Hmm.. I decided to go Taka to give it a try.. run there! Ya, reali was running like a mad dog..haha! I reached a florist shop at Taka 2nd floor.. haha! Oh..I was sooooo happy! I FOUND Lili bouquet! I hope she will be happy too.. I scared she will scold me because I bought 2 bouquet for her in 2days.. I was soooo lucky I able to find Lili.. There are 2 Lili bouquet placed at there.. And of course, I choosen the Best one! haha.. I quickly went to take bus16 to Kalleng Theatre..

On the way there, some part of the road had blocked due to rehersal of NDP. Oh! Jam... Sandra called and we meet at Lavender instead. Well, i waited for pretty long..because she said she might tink of other place to meet.. I had to wait for her call. I was standing alone at the control station.....holding that beauitful Lili bouquet. She called me and to meet at Chinatown instead.. after awhile, she called and decided to meet at ParkMall because she was tired and there is a straight bus back to her house. I was veri anxious to pass her the bouquet. I saw her walking towards me and I quickly hide the bouquet behind me.

She looks happy I guess..haha! She accepted the bouquet. And I accompanied her home. A happy day for me.. luckily, I managed to buy the bouquet and gave it to her. I able to see her smile again.. =)

21 hours with her
On Sunday nite, I spent the whole night fixing her computer.. Thanks to Jimmy help. And the next day, we went out shopping and stuff.. Thanx Sandra for your treat..at Sakae Sushi! 1st time..haha! We had a great time 2gether tis few days.. Treasure it. Study time, sem tests is in next week..Take Care.

Her Pretty and Dance

She is so beauitful on that nite..



She went to dance practise for the past one and a half months..Almost every dance practise, she was so tired. And I waited very long to see her performance.. 2day at Kallang Theatre..her dance item is Ash Children (Ash Child). Oh man..her dance steps is prefect! I keep on looking at her..haha! Her friends(F5) and I were sitting at the 2nd level.. quite far, however i'm able to spot her..=) It is so called a classic dance item.

Before the concert, I met up with 3 of her F5 members..(Jessie, Jane and June). Thanx to them, as in they meet up 2gether to go to the concert. ya, Sandra's friends are veri friendly and out going. At Burger King, most of the topic was about her..Sandra. haha! After that, we went to buy flowers..=) 1st, i quickly asked the florist to let me see those pink bouquet..eventually, I bought it..I thought she likes pink bouquet..but haha.. F5 members bought red rose bouquet for her. She said red is nicer den pink..LOl! well, nvemind.. hmm..and tis is the first time i buy flowers for a girl.. The feeling is scary when the moment i give her the bouquet..thinking she will take the bouquet or anot?!

After the concert, she was holding many bouquet..she was hugging her F5 members, I guess she is touched by her friends..all the way came there to watch her performance..2 of them came straight from school..And her aunt came to fetch her, thanx her aunt becoz she don mind sending me hm.. yup! I believed she had a great nite..Thumbs up for her performance. And there is another concert performance 2nite.. I'm looking forward to meet her later. Take Care.

I'll Still Love You More

Ask me how much you mean to me
And I wouldn't even know where to start
Ask if this love runs deep in me
And you won't find a deeper love in any heart
You could say you couldn't live one day without me
You could say all of your thoughts are about me
You could think no other love could be as strong
But you'd be wrong
You'd be wrong

Chorus:
If you say that you love me
More than anybody
Than anyone's ever been loved before
As much as you love me
Baby I'll still love you
Baby I'll still love you more
I'll still love you more

Ask me just what I'd do for you
And I'll tell you I would do anything
Ask if this heart beats true for you
And I'll show you a truer heart could never be

(Repeat Chorus)

And for every kiss
I'll kiss you back a hundred times
And for everything you do
I'll just do more
And for all the love you give
I'll give you so much back you'll see
Got so much love for you inside

(Repeat Chorus)

If you say that you love me
More than anybody
Than anyone's ever been loved before
No matter how much you love me
Baby I'll still love you
Baby I'll still love you more, yeah
I'll still love you more

Pardon me..

I had quit soccer.. to play as a professional football player is my passion. Due to my injury and my parents discourage me to play. They don't want me to take a big risk again. Last match, there was a hard tackled during the match.. a tinge of fear frightened me..and I lost the touch of the football..I played badly and was replaced after half time. It is time to make a decision (YES or NO) to soccer?!

When I found out I have no chance to be with her.. I have to make a decision which is to set her free..and not keep asking her the same question.. Her feeling towards me has been changed. Its ok.. I will still love her more.. 90 times we met up!

Sometimes..I make her angry until she kept saying "freaking", "whatever", "fine", "I'm pissed off". Argument starts when we were talking on the phone. But when we met up.. there are no argument. I want to know what she is doing..and i better stop this bad habit and create my own assumption on what she is doing now. Happy is not everything and nothing last forever.. So treasure it. Honesty, girls tend to change her mind frequently. And I should be more understand next time.

I'm always jealous with small matters, well..I better change!

Thanks, I can go to watch the concert...=)

I'm Lost, Happiness is not everything

2day i wanna write about my life now.. I'm Lost! tis few days, i felt very sad and confused. I was like running around the maze..don't know where is the exit.

1st of all, I had caused Sandra extremely angry on what i had done for her. On tuesday, I wanna go find her after her work.. I met her. and I accompanied her back hm.. while on the way hm, I had told her i didn't bring the cd she want. And she said it is ok, next time then pass to her. Well, I felt that i should pass her on tat day because i tink I may not pass to her the following days due to our busy schedule.. After sending home tat day.. I quickly ran to take a cab even though my stomach was pain.. I was very stubborn.. My mind only tink of passing the cd to her.. I came back to her block.. I called her and told her i had placed the cd on her shoes cupboard outside her house. Well, she was pissed off.. Oh my god, wht have i done wrong?! I forget to pass her the cd and i go back hm to take it again.. she don wanna take the cd because i didn't listen to her words and she was scared i did stupid tinks over and over again.. I should pass her when we meet up again.. She asked me to put inside her letter box instead. A happy day with her ended up made her angry.

2nd, I felt that I don't really know wht am i doing sometimes.. I'm not daring?! Lack of confident?! or ACTING I'M USELESS, NO CONFIDENT?? tis few days, i'm doing my assignments.. after sch, always when passing a chinese temple, i will pray for my family and of course Sandra.. hoping she can be happy, cheerful and healthy always.. It true, when sandra told me.. Happiness is not everything.. wht I did..is for sure I may not make her the most fortunate girl.. tis few days, we didn't have a gd chat before we slp.. in the morning, she has to wake up 7am and I caused her don't have enough slp.. Wht's wrong with Me????????? am I a Beast.... caused so much trouble for her.. she was so tired...2day is a weekend, hope she can rest well at home..sorry Sandra.

2day I went to Np to play soccer with Sandra's ex bf and friends.. I played a few matches only, and sat under the tree and rest.. glad to meet chris again.. take care dude.

Just now, when she called.. i knew I cant meet her 2day.. She was too tired and busy with her stuff.. well, she need a rest. Sad that i cant meet her.. its ok la, health is important.. after she put down her phone.. my mum tok to me.. She said, Don't force her if she don wanna be with you.. It will make things worst.. my eyes filled with tears, she was in her room.. all tis while, my family thought that I had a gf.. who know's?! Only Sandra and me know our real status.. Wht can i say?! She is single now, options is open.

I wanna watch you perform in the Concert..Can I?

I Will Fall In Love With You Again And Again.

Long time didn't update my blog.. Well tis week was a busy day for me.. But at the same time I enjoyed the times wif Sandra. 1st assignment i passed up in my yr2 life in SP.

1st up... on Mon evening, I went to Boon Lay Fun Fair 2gether wif Sandra's sister and three cousins.. My job was to take care of her "2nd boy". =) We went for many rides and took many nice photos ya.. However, smtink bad happened.. her cutest cousin, the youngest one vomitted. He insisted to play even though he was not feeling well. I was shocked when I was carrying him to McDonald, half way..he told me he feel like vomitting.. I quickly brought him to someplace near the drain.. After tat, I quickly brought him to the washroom for a wash up..thank god, he is ok. And he enjoyed his meal at McDonald wif Sandra and the rest. My job had been done.. and i went to andy's hse to do my Internet Marketing assignment.


2nd.. on wed evening, I gave a surprise for Sandra.. I brought her favourite blueberry cheese cake at tcc cafe. And I waited for her 30mins outside her workplace.. i thought she went home..Wow, luckily..I found out she was still at the office becoz she called me after her work. =) I accompanied her hm after tat... 82 times we met up after tat day!


3rd.. on friday, as usual.. i will be goin to her workplace to find her and go for a dinner..=). Before tat, I was at hm the whole afternoon doing assignment.. Veri happy..I got some free time to meet Sandra. We went to a 'fish & chips" resturant at Marina Square for dinner.. and we had a good chat after the meal. Her mum called her and asked her to buy spring rolls.. It was quite late, abt 10.30pm ar.. food court stalls were closed..She went to Newton Hawker to buy it instead..wanna give her mum a surprise!!! Coz her mum will think tat she will not buy the spring rolls for her. When she reached hm..her mum was veri glad.


4th.. on saturday, the most memory day for me again.. in the morning, my group members came to my hse to do assignment.. in the evening I went to ktv..which was Sandra's aunt and sis invitation. I'm not a gd singer.. and didn't sang well..haha! But at least, I impressed Sandra when i sang Tong Hua. Well, after tat, I went to Sandra's hse to stay overnight..2nd time i stayed in her hse. She was veri tired and we didn't chat much.. she went to slp after her bath.. oh ya, before she slp.. both of us tuned the tv channel..hoping to have malaysia tv2.. coz her dad wanna watched soccer match. And I made a big mistake.. I tuned auto and the previous channels was cleared and has to tuned back..oops!!! haha.. hmm.. we tried many times but we unable to tune to tv2..we went to slp after tat. The next morning, which is 2day..i quickly we to fixed the tv..and tune back all the channels..lucky man! I did it.. her mum prepared breakfast for me and she gave a packet contained dessert she made..my family juz tried it juz nw..wow! nice. I went hm at abt 1pm. And actually, I got match tis morning.. I didn't went for the match! haha.. I cant miss tis chance wif Sandra..right!!! haha.. I juz got the news from my teammate, Han, it is a draw game.. oops! pretty sad..my team didn't won the game..gained 1 point only. Well, thanx to her Mum letting to stay overnight wif my dearest Sandra.
tis week.. even though i got many things to do.. I enjoyed it.

Sandra has lighten up my days.. =) I will fall in love with you again and again. take care.

Yup..my jersey number is 14.. In action at Katong Pitch 2.. Mandai United 

Lady Luck shine on me...

Yest.. Sandra and I went to watch movie at Bugis.. Initial D. We met up at Clementi Mrt Station at abt 3.30pm den took bus 106 to town. Inside the bus, I was so so HAPPY!!! Hee.. Kept looking at the polo T that Sandra bought for me...1st time! haha... ya, of course I like it veri much..thanx Sandra. The movie starts at 5pm. It was a 'hot" show.. almost fully packed. haha. (Guess all the girls went for the 3 handsome leading characters while the guys went to watch how the cars drifted and raced.) After the movie, we went shopping at Bugis Street..She bought 2 beautiful skirts.. and after that, her cousin called to ask her to meet up at Suntec City. When we reached there, one of her friend called and decided to join us.

We made a decision to meet up at Bukit Timah instead to play pool. In the bus to cityhall mrt, a funny incident happened. The bus took 30mins to reach there.. guess wht?! the bus driver was blur and he drove to the expressway.. I guess becoz of the NDP..some of the roads are blocked tat why the bus driver blur.. Sandra was pissed off and I kept telling jokes to make her happy..haha! Unfortunately, those jokes didn't help.. =( And she even mistook me for flirting with some other girls in the bus!!! Well, eventually the bus driver found his way and we went to City Hall Long John to look for her cousin. Then we took the train to Clementi to meet her friend.

Clementi

When we reached there, we decided to take bus184 to Bukit Timah. While waiting for the bus to come.. Sandra asked me to pass her the skirt she bought. and you knw Wht!! I found out that I accidently left one of the skirt at City Hall Long John. I was panicking.. I quickly called my manager to get Long John outlet phone number so that I can link the calls to City Hall Long John.. I was veri lucky becoz my manager was a former Long John staff..=) After 6 calls from different places I managed to contact the outlet.. and the skirt was still there..veri lucky isit it! I decided to take it back 2day becoz since i goin for soccer match and meeting my classmates at esplanade. But 1st tink i thought was to get back her skirt.. I don wanna see her moody.

I found her skirt 2day.. Hee. and I got to meet up wif her juz nw at Marina Square. She accompanied me to eat my dinner.. at the same time, i can return her the skirt. Btw my team won 3 2 in that match.. we moved up to 1st in the table..WOW! I was very happy coz i got the chance to be in the starting eleven.. but now my left leg hurts due to hard tackling on the pitch this afternoon. Thanx Sandra.. 80 times we met up liao.. take care, gd nite.

If every step i take is a resemblance of how much I like you... i will be running forever...
nice photo..=)

She Really Does Know How To Make Me Glow....

Yest after sch in the afternoon, I accompanied Sandra for her check up. Wonder why she always looks prettier each day I see her. Haha. After the check up I had to go for work at night.. Sweety Sandra took the train wif me all the way to Jurong..although she could have juz took a direct bus hm from town. thanx Sandra! hmm.. a funny incident happened during the trip back to Jurong. While She was taking a nap on the train.. I took out my HANDPHONE to call my manager to let him know that I'll be late for work..

As we were about to reach JURONG, i woke up sleepy San. Being as cheeky as ever, she wanna change the wallpaper (which is of her) of my phone!!! While playing and stuff, she unintentionally put my HANDPHONE into her bag before she alighted at Chinese Garden. As the MRT door closes, i realized that my phone wasn't with me!!!! Being a "gan chiong spider" as usual, I thought I lost my HANDPHONE!!!!!!!! haha...On the train to work, I was searching for my HANDPHONE like "mad".. Even a passenger next to me helped me to find..(",). Finally, I decided to stay calm and not panic.. I quickly rushed to work and the first thing i did was to call Sandra.. Thank GOD!!! I left my HANDPHONE with her.. YES! Oh, so lucky.. haha! And I told her, it is ok.. I will juz get it from her the next time we meet up.. Yeah! can meet her again..haha!

This is the first time my HANDPHONE isn't with me. Hmm.. after I reached hm from work.. Jimmy (my group team leader) called me to inform me that we have to meet up earlier the next morning coz he "said we had to discuss our case study with our lecturer before going for classes." Well, the class was supposed to start at 9.30am the next morning.. And all along, I thought that I had to meet JIMMY and ANDY at 8.20am at Chinese Garden.. Well, didn't sense anything unusual about that at that point of time.. So, after the call, I juz called Sandra to say good nite and stuff.. I felt uncomfortable though coz my HANDPHONE was not with me.

tis morning.. at abt 8.25am, they still didn't turn up.. I felt worried coz I wasn't able to contact them.. Getting a little uptight, I decided to use the payphone to call ANDY.. Juz as i was about to call.. SANDRA from nowhere appeared in front of me.. OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! She came down to Chinese Garden!!! She is so nice.. coz she had to wake up earlier den me juz to come here first.. She came down so early juz to return me my HANDPHONE.. Sorry, you must be tired ya..

And guess wht.. It was actually a SURPRISE... planned by SAN!!!!!! She called Jimmy and Andy to plan for tis surpirse.. Actually, I didn't have to go to sch earlier for discussion.. haha! Wow.. to my surprise.. She really appeared in front of me.. it was juz like a dream... a dream that I never wanna wake up from. Thanx Sandra! After tt, I accompanied her to work before I went to school.. Hmm.. It was really such a pleasant and sweet SURPRISE!!! take care, gd nite. =)

WhY iS sHe JuSt So WoNdErFuL...

I just learnt something today. I learnt something new about Sandra. Her eyes not only catches my attention, now her words are so meaningful too... I'm just being silly. Her words have always been the best advice, its just that I never listened hard to her before... This is me. I am too stubborn, always not ready to accept comments other than what I believed in. But now, I know that things aren't going to work out this way, be it in my studies or relationships. Sandra told me what's important is to not only have a firm belief but at the same time be able to understand and look at things from different perspectives. Come to think of it, that's really what i need... Also like to take this chance to apologise to ANDY and JIMMY. Two of my BEST FRIENDS!!!!! Its only through my conversation with San today that i realized that i haven't been listening to them. But still, they kept listening to me and never showed any signs of frustrations when I am so headstrong and always just throwing their advices straight back at their faces... San made me realized how irritated and frustrated they might have felt when I did not listen to them and continued being stubborn. Here's a big THANK YOU and SORRY to you guys.. Really appreciate all the times when you guys were there for me.. ('',)

Speaking to her has made me open up so much... So much that its unbelievable. I never thought that I was even able to talk to someone so deeply and guess what, its with SANDRA!!!!!! Haha.. Isn't it cool..? My ideal gal is actually my soulmate! Haha. Sandra is really trueful. She tells me almost everything, and she complains that I am the one who hasn't been listening to her and telling her everything. Guess I really like her too much... Everytime when we face a problem, I'll just keep saying its my fault (trying to brush it away) and end off the argument. My intention is purely just to let the matter rest, but today, i realized that dear SAN don't like the way i handle our arguments. She prefers and hopes that we can talk things out calmly rather than sweep it aside and pretend that nothing ever happened. Hmm.. Have to say she really is so unbelievable... In such a great way.

Now that I realized all these, I know saying it out like tt won't help. I need to start changing my mindset. I need to start accepting changes, be more flexible, more open... But I know that no matter what, she'll be there to help me along. And for that, what more can I ask for. I am just so thankful... THANK YOU.

搁浅

搁浅

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚
风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我
我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在
我睁开双眼
看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

Fixing a Broken Heart

There was nothing to say
The day she left.
I just filled a suitcase
Full of regrets......
I hailed a taxi in the rain,
Looking for someplace to ease the pain......


Hoooh......
Then like an answered prayer,
I turned around and found you there.....

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart!
You really know what to do;
Your emotional tools
Can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart.
Fixing a broken heart......

Now I don't understand
What I'm going through.
There must be a plan that led me to you.
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are near.


Hyeah......

Just like an answered prayer ---
You make the loneliness easy to bear.

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart!
You really know what to do;
Your emotional tools
Can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart.
Fixing a broken heart......

Soon the rain will stop falling, baby......
I'll forget the past
Cos' here we are at last!

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart!
You really know what to do;
Your emotional tools
Can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart.
Fixing a broken heart......

Fixing a broken heart......


After I met her, I seem to have acquired an interest in collecting old love songs. I already have a good few and I hope to find & preserve more. Hopefully, 1 day, I can sing my own song of love to her......(",)

Mandai Sports Club United

2day was the second time I played for Mandai United. It was an interesting match for us. Firstly, as usual the team had to reach there b4 11am.. the match started at 11am sharp. Last meeting with Sol Invictus Football Club was 3 1 we won. However, it could be a different story becoz The captain and team were pretty sad becoz the manager, coach, 1st team keeper, playmaker couldn't come for the game.. :(

Secondly, I had a quick warm up and captain asked us to sit down to talk abt our formation.. strategy of tis game. Well, i was nervous but excited at the same time becoz i was in the starting eleven.. I'm playing left wing to support the striker up front. I was told to cross, dribble if i can and set piece like giving through ball to my team strikers.

How the match went?!

1st half..

1st 20mins, we were tired becoz of the hot weather, and also.. we missed alot of chances, me too, the goal was juz in front of me.. and i shot a grounder ball and was saved easily by the goalkeeper. I delievered crosses to the strikers and made no mistakes to dribble pass the defender..I took 4 corner kicks. Our ball position was better den them. However, the luck was not there.

After 30mins of play, a goal came in.. GOAL! haha.. my team striker, richard..Australia player scored the opening goal.. a low crossed from the right, he took the chances and easily beat the keeper. I was very happy and eager to score more goals for the team. Half Time score 1 0. Mandai leading.

Second half was a different story, we played hard and captain had told us our mistakes in the 1st half.. we build our confidence and improved our vision.. Guess wht was the Full time score?! (",)
My team won 5 0 to Sol Invictus Football Club. Wow.. in incredible match isn't it?!.. No star players but we eventully got clean sheet and won the game.. The captain was pleased of my overall performance.. (",) We went up 2 place up in the league table.. 5th in the table. I'm sad becoz last week the 1st match i played for mandai united had lost to Givaudan Singapore Football Club 2 1, 2nd in the league table. Well, don look back ya... I'm looking forward the next match in tis coming sunday..


Yesterday, i went to meet Sandra, after her work.. we went to marina square shpping centre to eat...at Han's. Well, it has been a long time i didn't meet her.. I'm veri glad yest i had a chance to c her.. 75 times we met up! She had a chicken Burger and I had Fish & Chips. After the dinner, we had a chat and went hm at abt 11pm.. Thanx Sandra.. Hope she is happy on whtever things she is doing.. (",) take care.