Meet up += 1;

2day was so called another busy day for me.. actually my class ended 5pm. However, no practical.. my class ended soon..3pm. I quickly took mrt to go Sandra's hse there..

I deicided to call her down for walk.. but the weather was hot..I changed my mind, went up to her hse to find her. Wow... got chance to chat wif her. She took out her pri sch progress report bk for me to see. I finally can see her progress report!!! Excellent results.. compare wif me..haiz! Not a single subject was less den 80 marks.

After tat, we went down for a walk in the evening. She treated me a cup of sweet corn..$1.50.
And we went up to her hse to watch channel U 6pm show. The show was nice. After watching.. i went hm.. take care, gd nite.

Indomitable Spirit That Never Say Dies

Sch starts...

2day is the first day of the new semester for my 2nd yr education studies in poly.. It was a tiring day maybe because i slept at about 2am and I had to wake up at 6.30am. Later I will tell more about why last nite so late then sleep. Early in the morning, My lesson started with my elective module. I met many new and old friends in that class. After that, I had a 1hr break b4 goin for practical lesson. Wow, 1st day only.. I had to do a small "research" to pass up after the lesson. Yup..after I finished my class work, the lecturer allowed us to leave. Den it was the long awaited 1hr lunch break.. 1pm finally came. It was a happy day for me because 1st day of the school, i able to meet Sandra for Lunch at Clementi. I quickly rushed to take MRT. We went to McDonalds, it was a hot sunny day.. even inside the fast food resturant..I could feel the heat. After meeting Sandra, I went back to sch for the remaining lessons till 5pm.


Yest.. I caused Sandra to slp late. We chatted about relationship in general, regardless whether its BGR or pure friendship.. She told me no matter what, for a relationship to work, it needs 2 hands to clap.. only den will both parties be happy in life. Haiz.. Guess i have to admit that she was right.. I'm always the one who tink too much! I made the tinks so complicated. I need to change my mindset...

As for now, I have smtink to tell Sandra.. Only for her! Hope she will view my blog.
Message for her : We knew each other when we were in pri sch. After 8yrs.. den I started to knw u better and understand wht u reali want and the tinks u dislike. 1st day I chat with u was last yr 28 Dec 2004 on MSN. Since then.. I want to get myself going to ask u more abt ur life and stuff.. Feb 19 till nw I had met up with you 65 times..sent you home 45 times.. I will always keep track of the times we met up. I can say that though the memories I left for you may not be as much as those that came from your past relationship.. However, I believe that I wil be able to make you as happy as b4.
Please don ever give up on me. I will become a better man. Even though, you haven't accepted me.. neither have we started a relationship yet..I wanna tel u.. pls, ignore my negative side.. I knw I tink too much, to the extent that i'm worried and always thinking if u had a proper meal everyday..can u believe tat?! haha.. Crazy guy indeed or should i say I'm crazy about you. Believe me, everything I did was deep from my heart. Pls.. don give up.. I reali want to hear the truth from u..whtever things not happy..juz "shoot" me. I will solve it. I wanna make u happy until the day u got ur ideal guy.. oways treasure the times wif U. SANDRA.. u will oways be special in my heart.

She is the gal that touched my heart.. She is the gal that light up my life.. No matter who is her future bf.. I don wanna tink..as long as she's happy..

On Saturday, I was working afternoon shift.. however, Manager called me to help out at the new outlet at Marina Square on tat nite. So i worked 12pm to 11pm..so called the "busy" day for me. I went there as usual as an i/c scooper. haha. Promotion On Now..!!! Haha. unlimited single scoop.. I was damn tired.. customers kept coming to me..for FREE ice cream. I was like..oh my god.. the ice cream was super hard. However, I had determintion to work till 11pm because I saw Sandra's favourite i/c... Blueberry i/c.. after work, i scoop in a 1 litre tub..and sent to her after my work. Veri glad.. she accepted.. Yeah!

Right now.. sch started already.. But Sandra, I still wanna let you know that when u are around wif me.. I will be more hardworking and happy coz I have u beside me to support me and push me to a greater height.. take care, gd nite. (",)

Wow.. I love tis photo! isn't it perfect?! haha..
 

Tis is the photo tat attracted more den 20 ppl in friendster..to meet up wif her! Sweet photo.. Jealous at the same time.

True

Well, it has been a long time i didn't update my blog. I have alot of tinks to say but don know where to start..

High and low week for me.

"Low"
1st..let me sae the "low" tat had happened to me these past few days. 4days have not meet up wif Sandra. Miss her alot..

2nd..I fell sick recently.. got fever + sore throat + flu.. on tat day I fell sick, i was working in the afternoon shift. I had to do some cleaning in the outlet.. Was climbing up about 2 storeys high to clean the glass pan and almost fell down to the ground coz the ladder was too wet. So lucky! I thought i goin to die..haha! b4 doin cleaning, Sandra called me and said she was at jp. I wanna give her a surprise, so quickly run down to the interchange when i was supposed to be working.. still wearing the Swensen's shirt..haha! too bad, i waited for 15 mins.. she was not there. Hmm.. Den decided to go back to work. Sad cant meet up with her...

"High"
1st..I was selected for a soccer team! Mandai United..Amateur League! This coming sunday, i hve a training at Farrer Park.. All ready!!! haha..

2nd.. sch goin to start! My 2nd yr in poly.. Information System Options.. I got into the course i wanted. Yeh!

3rd.. Sandra came to my hse today!!! My mum cooked lunch for her.. My dream have came true.. 1st time, brought "her" to my house.. as in 1st gal to come to my hse like tt.. I asked my mum wht is her commenst abt Sandra.. She juz said, U like her can areali. I'm happy to hear tat.. Hee.

4th.. I had already met up with Sandra for 63 times and 45 times send her hm.. More and more!!! haha.. however, i'm not her ideal guy.. more den 20guys in friendster wanna meet her and make friends with her..can u believe tat?! Oh man. Sadz.

I juz wan her to be happy!! I gave myself a promise.. I don wanna see her cry again, i don wanna see her getting sad of anytink when we r 2gether.. I will oways remember and keep tis promise i amde to myself..

When time to set her free..Guess i have to do so.. I cant be soooooo selfish!!! Y do ppl want to have a gf/bf??? Y do ppl admire so many diff gals/guys at a time??!! Y can't juz love onli one person.. Only 1 who would always stay inside the heart!! Forever.. loving a person does not mean need to be wif her 4ever.. When Sandra finds herself a bf.. I will SURE respect her bf.. I will ask him, hw he make her touched?? hw he make her fall in love wif him?? well.. deep in my heart, i really don want tis to happen.. Haiz. anyway, God has been fair to every1! right nw, i got the chance to be wif her..as in accompany her till she found her ideal guy!!! relationship nw important to me?? No, i don tink so.. Tink studies would be my first priority.. I had wht i wanted. I found her..no one can replace her.. concentrate on my studies.. got brain,got talent den is the BEST!

I will oways remembered 26 May!!! She came to my hse.. I will oways remember my ideal gal had come to my hse b4.. take care..

==BIGGEST, BEST EVER SURPRISE==

I had the BIGGEST, BEST EVER SURPRISE of my life yesterday..........................! I'm so happy! Yippe!

She was at Port Campbell.(Australia). Stylist! haha.. 

So sad I don't have many photos of her. I hope I can collect many of it. Tis photo was taken when she was at Hong Kong. Nice View.  

I will

If I have to wait forever
I guess that's what I'll do
For me, it will be worth it to finally be with you.

I'm veri sorry..

I didn't respect her friends.. Useless guy.. wanna send her safety hm but end up made her angry.. Who r u Bing Jie?! y u did tis to her.. Deep in thoughts, i walked hm alone from her aunt hse, 1hr 20 mins walk.. veri thirsty and tired.. I deserved it..


y can't i juz make her happy oways????? y cant juz like her best friend (jess) having a long relationships for more den 8yrs... Can I?

I wrote tis blog.. to sae sorry to her friends... ah ya, cant compare wif others.. I'm Bing Jie.. no use to compare.. Sorry Sandra. Happy u got in to my cab..and she was back to her aunt hse soundly..

Hope u have a nice trip to malaysia tis weekend.. Enjoy!

After all, i only want her to be happy.. no worries! Care and Concern is important but.. wht i did tat nite.. was totally OFF... take care, gd nite!

There's no need to hide from me...

Well, 2day i woke up quite late. 1st tink I did in the morning was to help my mum to mop the floor. After I mopped the floor, I had some cookies with milk for breakfast... Actually, I was supposed to pay a visit to my buddy's dad at Alexandra hospital today. His dad was caught in a car accident yesterday morning..! When I heard the news, my heart sank. Luckily, his dad only dislocated his shoulder... Phew. But, my buddy juz called up, asking me to save the trouble of going all the way there. Since i not going to pay his dad a visit, I decided to accompany Sandra b4 going to work. Oops.. Tink I'm going to be late in meeting Sandra at Boon Lay Interchange. Haha.

For whatever freaking reasons, she don't want me to meet her.. (I got a shock of my life when she called and tried to lie saying that she was already home n stuff.. Haha. But I'm too clever for that.. Hee.) And finally when i saw her, she don't even want to look at me...!!! I kept looking at her and all she did was to look at the ground when talking to me.. Damn.. Am i so ugly...???!!!! And finally i found out the reason.. She had a big pimple on her nose!!!! She still looked ok yesterday, guess she must have went to squeeze it... Haiz.. Told her to leave it alone yesterday.. She never listens to me.. =( Throughout the whole 3 hours we were together, she din wan to look at me... I was like talking to myself.. Haiz.. Told her i dun mind how she look le, she juz dun believe lor..

Hmm.. Still at her house now... Going to work soon. Hmm.. Rather sad coz she leaving for malacca tml.. Though she's gg only for 2 days, 1 night but still... Tink i'll miss her so much..! Starting to feel moody le.. Damn.

Is it juz another 4 letter word...

Today is the day to be abstract.. And think of the WHATs, WHYs, WHENs, HOWs of love.. What exactly is love? Why do i love her? When did i start loving her ever so deeply? How do i show it to her and hope that she'll understand juz how much she means to me... Does everyone think of all these too... Or is it just me...

Well, today had another fun filled day with dear San. We met up at around 3pm at lot 1 to help her mum settle some stuff. Have to say, she's prettier than usual today. With a super mini pink skirt and cute white tank top, she's looks so pretty and sexy! Heehee. But dun like it when other people stare at her.. Haiz.. Hope she only wears such short skirts when she's out with me.. haha. After that, we took a bus down town! I wanted to bring her to somewhere special but... Hmm.. hate to say this, but i really do not have much experience regarding the "nice dating spots" in Singapore.. Haha. So, we just alighted at heerens. Spent some time shopping around there before proceeding to cineleisure. Wanted to bring her for a movie but currently no nice movies on.. Waiting for MR n MRS SMITH though... That one looks interesting.. Tink san would like it!! So, after walking ard cine, and having some special dessert (multimix!!) we walked down towards Centerpoint..

Spent the bulk of our evening there as we were sitting down at one corner at TIMES to read the horoscope books.. Hee. Sandra likes reading such stuff, she kinda believes all these quite alot. As time sped pass, we continued walking down to Plaza Singapura for dinner.. Went to Pasta Mania for dinner! Hmm.. Its a rather nice place, food not too expensive and quite nice too. I had some seafood pasta while San had creamy chicken pasta.. (of which i ate half of hers coz according to her, its too creamy and tt makes her full easily..haha ) We took a train down to cityhall after dinner, and we continued walking to SUNTEC.. Finally decided to bring her to SKY GARDEN.. Can say its a rather nice n quiet spot to chat... But... U guys would never expect this.. Coz San is also my tuition teacher currently, (to help me prepare for my O'levels ENG... She's so sweet to offer to help!) she spent the time there tutoring me ENG.. (as in i brought my assignments along for her to mark n stuff, so she was like marking and "scolding" me for all the silly errors i made..! Oh man, rather embarassing but at least this is another excuse to get to see her more often..! haha. Afterall, we did get to chat towards the end of the day...

I realised she's still confused about what she wants and stuff.. She told me she dun really remember how is it like to love someone.. Neither does she understand what's true love or why she's feeling this way.. Hmm.. Why can't i juz have her when all i want so badly is for her to love me for who i am.. Tink she's too badly hurt in her past relationship.. She kinda lost the will to start another one.. Wait.. Or is it juz me.. I wonder what is she thinking...

LOVE.. is it juz another 4 letter word...

Rainy Days...

Yest nite, i had a "bad" dream..I dreamt that all my relatives hated me (for whateva freaking reason i can't recall)..haha! scary.. anyway, glad to know that it was onli a dream.. i woke up veri late 2day, my mum bought noodles from the market, "brunch" ( breakfast+ lunch) for me. In the afternoon, I decided to tidy up my room and do some housework.. to let my mum have some rest.


Every moment we share
I will try to show you how much I care.
If I ever fail to express...
It doesn't mean I love you any less.
Just look into my eyes,
And you will see no lies.

You will see how much you mean to me;
You will see that you will always be,
The person who makes my heart sing.
You are, simply... my EVERYTHING !

take care..(",)

== A dAy To ReMeMbEr ==

Whoo.. What an exciting day....!!! May 5 would definitely be a day to remember... Started off by waiting like an idoit at Sandra's block for like half an hour! She takes forever to get ready! And finally, when she's done, we left for town to meet her friends! We are going clubbing...! Feeling a little embarrased to say this, but this is really my first time going clubbing...! Haha.. And ya.. my friends out there know that i'm not the wild type, so u all know the reason why i'm going... Haha. So, here are the details of what happened...

9:00pm: Reached Cityhall MRT but San's friends not here yet, so the two of us went walking around Raffles City

9:30pm: Finally met up with her friends who took forever to prepare also coz one of them was too excited and can't wear her contact lens properly.. haha.

9:40pm: The 4 of us went to breadtalk to buy a cake for her other fren, Catherine. Its like a pre-birthday celebration for her! After that, had to walk all the way down Citylink Mall to get a lighter to prepare for the mini celebration.

10:00pm: We are still waiting at the Taxi Stand for a cab to go down to MS...! The queue is long and no taxis are coming in except those that are on call.. Damn. Looking at the frustrated faces of the girls, i decided to call a cab...!

10:30pm: Finally, we are off to Double O!! ok, these girls have already planned things out long long ago. They are first going to Double O to drink coz there's free flow of drinks there, den after they had their fill, we are den going to head down to zouk to party! And coz their main purpose was to go ZOUK to party, and will only be staying at double O for a while, i decided to wait outside for dear San and her friends! Who ask me to be a guy...!! No Guy's night... Bleh.

1140pm: Wow.. They are finally out after waiting for like an hour plus. She look drunk. Her face is warm, red... Haiz.. Why in the hell must she drink so much...!

1200am: Reached ZOUK!! And we celebrated Catherine's birthday outside Copthorne hotel.. Juz a really simple n mini one..

1210am: The Queue to go in was LONG< LONG< VERY LONG!!!!

1225am: Wow..! This place is really quite happeneing!!! There are like so many ppl squeezing at the dance floor!! We were like sardines packed in a huge tin! Gosh.. Those guys juz wanna grab a girl n run away to one corner to smooch.. haha. So, being the only guy around, i had to play the "bodyguard" role, making sure that her friends dun get "touched" intentionally.

0115am: Everything went fine till the girls decided to go to the washroom. Was waiting outside and the next moment, i saw Sandra being held out of the toilet by her friends.. She seems to be in a daze.. I was really pissed.. What exactly happened, she was still ok before this. Her friends said she was dizzy in the washroom and kinda of like fainted and hit the basin or sth...!!! Oh my god! She seriously can't even walk straight... Damn.

0125am: Brought her outside for a breather. She's still drunk. No response when i tried to ask her questions or whateva... She's just so not herself...

0130am: She finally said sth.. She want WATER!!!! I want to go buy it immediately but at the same time I can't leave her there.. And i'm rethinking her ability to go get water with me coz she can't even walk straight.

0140am: Finally, she stood up. We went in search for water.

0145am: Found a mini coffeeshop nearby.. And wat a coincidence! She met her secondary school friends there.. And one of them used to be my Swensens ex-colleague.

0155am: Took a CAB back to her house!

0210am: We sat down somewhere to chat before going to her house. Well, it was interesting to be able to talk to her face to face at this time of the day. Well, guess that's all i'm going to reveal.. haha.

0400am: We reached her house and her DAD was still awake, watching soccer. I'm rather nervous. First time staying over at someone's house and its still my beloved Sandra's house!!!! Oh man, i must be dreaming... =)

0445am: She really take forever to bath!!! Like was stuck in the washroom for a freaking half an hour. And she was squeezing her pimples and blaming me for her pimples.. Damn.

0515am: We went to slp together.. I slept at her cousin's room. She's so sweet!!! Came to spot check me a short while after she switched off her lights and brought me a cup of water!

0700am: Ok, i have to admit. Though i'm staying at her house, (which i thought would only happen in my dreams.. haha) but maybe i'm juz not used to sleeping at somebody else's house.. haha. Tossing n turning for quite some time and finally woke up at 7... Oh gosh, results out in one n a half hour's time..! Counting Down..

0815am: San is up! Her mum passed me some toiletries to wash up and after that, i'm already in front of the com.. Waiting...

0830am: Tried logging in to check, but the freaking server is down or sth..! I juz can't log in...! I'm so nervous, scared, excited.. Don't know how to describe..! Haiz..

0845am: After many failed attempts, we decided to give up and ask one of my friend to check it out for me.

0850am: Results are out! Hmm.. I paseed all my subjects..! 1A, 1B+, 3Bs, 3C+.... Well, though its not as good as those top students, but guess i tried my best.. Can say i'm pretty satisfied coz my hard work with Sandra paid off...!! But i'll still try harder next sem.. Hee.

0910am: Had breakfast.. Can't believe her mum made the "pumpkin kueh" herself.. Super nice! Hee.

1028am: Ok.. I'm going to end here for now... Yawnz.. Going home to get some rest... Its really a day to remember..!!! (",)

Hot Weather

Long time didn't update my blog..haha! Recently, I was busy working.. everytime nite shift, it is really tiring. Later 5pm i'm going to work again. Yesterday, I went out with my parents. We went to Sun Tec City and Esplanade.. It was Labour Day. It has been a long time since i last went out with my family. I had a nice chat with my dad. We reached home in the evening after which I took a short nap and went out for dinner. After that my colleague called me to join them to play pool..haha! at Bukit Timah. We sat down at some Coffee Shop to have Milo Dino! haha..


Everyday Im' tinking of her.. Always want her to be Happy! take care.