天天夜夜

How do I live
without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever
Ever survive　
How do I　
How do I　
How do I live

当你的泪在微笑中滑落　
回忆的风　
吹着我走　
我却情愿停留
当一颗心到时间的尽头　
呼吸也回头可是我记得　
你给我的梦
每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在　
放过伤害
我会走开
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我对你看到未来

So， how do I live
How do I live
How do I live
without you

当世界都遗忘我的时候　
你的一切对我来说　
经过才能拥有
我应该以为一份真爱的背后
总觉得不会有　
心痛的时候跟伤痛的感受

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在
走过伤害
我会走开
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我跟你看到未来　

So， how do I live
How do I live
How do I live without you
Oh， Tell me now ~~

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在
走过伤害
我会走开
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我陪你看到未来
How do I live
How do I live
without you
How do I live without you
How do I live without you ~

我只要你开心多一点

I juz wanna you to be more happy

2day.. I thought she went for the tuition class in the afternoon. However, i was wrong. She was sick. =(
I started to pray and pray for the best... hope she recover soon. Actually, I got to work at 6pm 2day.. but I didn't go to work, thanks to Yani..assistant manager found a replacement for me. I have no mood when I heard......
I decided to "camp" at home.. glad she went to see the doctor. Ya, she has a good brother who drove her to the nearest clinic.

Coming Events..
-Dave is finally back to Singapore after 3 weeks at overseas.
-Two of my cousins are getting to marry soon.. yeah, long time didn't go to wedding dinner.
-I'm going to start working at my attachment company near Outram park mrt station.. new environment and get to try hw is IT field looks like.

I was happy when called me juz nw.. and I have a small request for her.. if she is reading it.
I hope i can record ur voice in a tape recorder.. a few sentence is enough.. a memory for me tat I have a backup of her stuff. =)

Take care.

Thoughts

After 2hrs... i'm still looking at those gifts she gave me.. =)

Journey to the East

2day I had ITP briefing in my school. I promised to meet her cousin at 2pm but the briefing start at 1pm till 5pm.. Gosh! I tinking wanna skip the briefing anot..

Deep in thoughts.. I decided to leave early at 3+pm and went straight to pasir ris. I knew I was areali late.. and veri sorry to let her cousin waited for me at the bus stop. =(

She called me to take my time.. and we chatted when I was on the way there.. after 39km of travelling.. I getting nearer and nearer to her when I was boarding the bus at pasir ris. I started to have "cold sweat" and my heartbeat virates even faster when I was inside the lift.

Flashback, actually I areali plan to pass her the gift yest afternoon. However, she felt sick and its no point I went there to find her..coz I would be disturbing her.I have been searching for her gift at different kind of places.. yest afternoon, I knocked off from work at 6pm.. I went to shopping alone.. wearing the "smelly" workplace clothes. I kept myself awake even though I was tired. In my mind was wht to buy for her? since she is sick..

I bought 6 items for her.. haha! I hope she like it.

And juz nw.. finally, she got my gift and a letter for her. Does she saw the last part of the letter? haha.. form a heart shape =)

No matter wht.. I hope she will get well soon, health is more important.
And I'm veri glad tat I had received some gift and a letter from her.. I'm so honoured to have those gift. Thanks. Treasure it treasure it... I had kept those gift she gave me in a safe and secret place.. haha! No one can touch it.. Only Mr Hong Bing Jie. LOL! selfish guy indeed.

Take care.

What went wrong?

2day is my parent's 23rd wedding anniversary. Firstly, I made my mum angry.. coz I showed her a black face when I reached hm from work. I was veri tired after work. I didn't have a gd rest tis few nite. Because..I thinking of her every nite. I want to rest early but I cant. You are oways on my mind. =)

Surprise me was tat my brother had reserved a table at the restuarant..and it has been a long time we didn't have a great meal 2gether. Hmm.. I didn't reali eat much..

She called me.. I become more awake! haha.. I felt sorry because we didn't have a gd conversation. I was wondering y I turned moody after tat. I found out I reali like her.. I have alot of tinks to tell her but my "golden" mouth juz kept quiet.. and kept saying sorry to her onli.
I was telling myself.. y I didn't have sore eyes and flu?! I don wanna her to get sick.. Let all the unhappy tinks give it to a recycle bin. And tis lucky recycle bin (Bing Jie) met a great gal.. =)
I disappoint her tis time.. I oways tink of my past. Bing Jie please wake up! Don't let her walk away from me.. stay by my side.

Counting down.. after 74hrs 40mins 20 seconds, I will know the answer.

Take care.

Forgive me

I never meant to hurt you the way I know I have.Your love means more to me than anything and I'll do whatever it takes to prove that to you.

Please forgive me for the pain I've caused.
I'll make it up to you every chance I get.You have my heart.. and I do treasure you. =)

I never expect to say those kind of words that makes you angry. A weak point of me is don't know how to express my feeling. And I guessed I can only write my heart out at here.

Sometimes, I feel upset when I saw you angry. Because, my wish is to let you stay happy always. But my wish may not come true.. in a relationship, there will always have quarrel and annoying things happened.. But this problems let us learn from mistakes and relationship will gets better each day.

I do realise my mistake and I will not do it again. Sorry.

When you realise You want to spend The rest of your life with somebody, You want the rest of your life To start as soon as possible.

East Coast...

Actually, 2day I was working.. thanks to leslie, he gave me a surprise. LOL! quite werid to sae a guy give me a surprise. haha!

Well.. we went to East Coast Park. It has been a long time I didn't go to East Coast. The place stays the same.. and each bicycle cost us $7/hr + 1 hr free. Hmm.. it is quite expensive.. coz she told me there is a bike stall rent bicycle for $4 onli.. Oops! but nvemind.. its too late.

Michelle is trying to learn to ride bicycle..but she fell down quite badly. We decided to rent a double seat bicycle.. =)Time flys.. and we ride for 4hrs. LOL!

After tat.. we went to Bebok for our dinner. yeah! her recommentation of food suits me. Ice Kacang have lots of ingredients.. I tink the stall owner has been changed, heard from Leslie but it still delicious. =)

Thanks to u guys.. school starts for u all. Meet up some other days ya.

Take care.

What A Rose Can Say

Firstly, thanks to Leslie's hp.. It captured beautiful roses. And tis 3 photos is PERFECT! We used dry ice to make the nice effect.. =)

Off day

It has been a long time i didn't get a chance to stay at hm for the whole day. Since nobody at hm, I did all the housework.. It kills time.

Being love by someone is better den loving someone. Remember tis phrase.
If you love somebody, set her free.. Juz let her do wht she want. =)

Playing chinese chess online now..
Winning the game is not main point. Perseverance till the end is the most important regardless winning or losing. ( Tough Time Never Last, Tough People Do)

Meaning..
Winning a gal's heart is not the issue.. ? Most importantly is you give ur best shot and leave the rest to fate !

Juz nw, I heard a gd news. One of my soccer buddy, he is going to marry soon. And next yr april.. he will be a father. Hmm..they are young couple, after 11 Nov..their marriage road starts.

Take care.

Note: after 2day, 1 month past...

do fa do fa...

Simply like her laughter... do fa do fa is our language. haha! only both of us knws it.

Juz keep smiling.. I love it.
Making her happy is not easy but wanna her happy forever is even harder..Well, I don't mind give myself a try..A great test for me. And it brightens my day too.
I was telling her what I wanna buy for her if I got a chance to meet her some day. She asked me to give her some hint on wht I get for her. I let her guess by alphabets.. haha! Ans is starts with M, L and...

hmm.. my wish is to get all the things that start from A to Z. And complete all the alphabet order. =)

Juz nw after work, I went to Bukit Timah Plaza to wait for them. While waiting for them, I was on the phone with her and walking around the supermarket more than 10 times at the same area..haha! Yup, I oways have a strong sense..and knew wht she is going to do. I will be your recycle bin if u don mind me..this stubborn guy.

Guess wht?! We guys played pool again..haha! It gets more fun each day coz guys and gals become more professional.

I was surprised that she called me after 10pm. It was the second time tat I heard her voice after 10pm..normally, she went to do her stuff or sleep areali. Treasure the times with her even juz a few minutes of talk. Thanks gal.

Are we juz going to turn around?
Or are we gonna cross each others path?
Will we just let go of what we had?
Or go to the place where love is bound.

Don't let me walk alone. I wan to walk by your side.
Don't let me talk of something else. Its you I wan to talk with.
Don't let me fall for someone else. Its you I wan to fall in love with.

And I was afraid to lose our friendship. Will I able to hear do fa do fa in the future again?

Quick tell me a date.. when we can meet up?



Take care.

Bed time story..

My naughty sister waiting for me to say bedtime story before she slp. After I played pool.. it is about 11pm. Well, interesting part is I introduce both of best friends to each other. Polymate, Andy and my lifetime blood brother, Keith.

I shall organize more outing with some of my other friends.. and meet up 2gether. haha! Btw, this is the latest photo of my sister and I. I juz got a haircut.. thanks to andy's mum. =)

My sister told me to take out my spects..and SMILE in front of the camera. haha!

Take care.

最近

你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱 我却不能给你我全部

我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

Workplace..

Hey guys.. wanna ask u a question. Is it really matter to compare who gets the higher pay in the outlet? Well.. to me, work happily is the most important factor of all. Even if I get $10 per hour but the working environment is really down to earth. I will rather choose other job.

If a person works very hard and his attitude is good.. however, the manager didn't see his effort. It is a waste.. I believe it depend on luck too.

Why guys is ego? Why we need to compare who scoop the ice cream faster? Who can scoop with both hands..

To me.. able scoop with both hands will benefit yourself becoz I will not tired easily and I'm not trying to "challenge" my other colleague. They were shocked tat both leslie and me can scoop with both hands.. hmm, nothing special.. we are still human. I only took some of my time to train myself.. tat's all. And please! To be a capable person..I will not depend on scooping ice cream to earn my living..it is juz my part time job. My plan is to get the work done in a smartest way.. nonetheelss I have to put in effort. Earn big money.. it is wht a guy mindset should be.

Take care.

No idea how she feels

Saw her online
Listen to her voice on phone
What else can I do, meet her up?

Because every passing day I am scarred
If any bad happens, I hope it's not severe
But I know and it's crystal clear
It's a matter of time before my feelings reveal
But I still have no idea how she feels

Take care.

Night's life

I'm worried abt smtinks tat cant be solved.

Firstly, my mum oways slp late..she will think alot and her mind can't stop thinking and have a gd rest. Whenever, I went hm late after my work.. I will open her bedroom door and see whether she slp anot. I'm worried becoz at tis time 2am, she should be in her dreamland but.... she woke up and tell me "Find something to eat if you are hungry" in chinese. Wht can i do to help her? hmm.. only one solution.. not to let her worry about me.

I found out even though my left hand can scoop "hard ice cream" juz like a stone..haha! but at the end of the day..there is oways a tinge of pain on my left hand. Raining day, it will hurt too. I felt useless although I can do pull up.. When time goes by, I don wanna predict wht will happen to my left hand. Pray hard.

2day, I saw some superstar contestant came to Haagen's Daz.. like the guy called Derrick. hmm..no comments coz I'm not interested in guys..haha!
However, i'm shocked to see a secondary teacher of mine. After 7yrs ago, I met her. Wow! she was with her bf.. And I remembered she is the most beautiful and youngest gal's teacher of all, older than me 5yrs old. And she promised me to come and find me again. haha! Oops! ya.. her bf is a real handsome dude but holding a cigarette..well, I should sae even though he is a smoker doesn't mean he is bad.

Lastly, it is abt my fav sports.. Soccer. I lost touch of it, I missed every saturday training.. and suddenly thought of playing soccer..haha! Nope.. I cant have tis kind of mindset..health is more important. =)

Take care.